i woke up one night in the middle of my sleep with a certain fear that gripped my heart. frightful enough to make me break into cold sweat. i could not return to sleep so i decided to play around with my iphone. somehow it brought me back to blogger and i began reading some really important posts in my life since i began blogging. i think one really cannot break away from the past. it haunts you even. when i started tumblr, i wanted to keep the burden of the past eight years out of my sight. it was a refreshing new start but it would go against my very nature to not read back at my life and think about it.
as i read through the posts, scenes played and replayed in my head. emotions of regret, anguish for some, but happiness and longing for others. there were days of sadness that i thought would never end and there were great times that i also thought would not cease to be. everything comes to pass in this life and i would have to learn how to not cling on to these memories to tightly.
“it is the journey that gives us happiness, not the destination.”
– soc, the peaceful warrior
i am glad, no less, that i wrote blogged all of them down so that even as i let go, i will not forget. i never want to forget all the great friends i have tho we may not be as close as before – those from sji, singapore polytechnic dmmt, emmaus disciples, vultus crucis, army, ntu hall of residence fifteen and adm. thank you for walking with me through up and down times. it will continue to be a constant reminder to cherish this life that i have got and to love the people around me. at the end of my life, i know i would be glad to look back at these posts and be happy that i lived the life i had and shared it with wonderful people.
thank God for blogs.
